Blue Day Thoughts
I'm having a bit of a blue day tonight. I feel unattractive; heavy and ponderous. I have slept all day... exhaustion has been with me for 4 days now, and DGT suggested I "just sleep" to get rid of it.
It feels as if I'm somehow still carrying the intense physical exertions of the past fortnight around with me. I don't know how to let go of the feeling. A heaviness of spirit in me which I do not know how to process. I have tried administrating, mindfulness, and now just surrendering to the state.
When will it pass? When can I begin to live again? Who is the writer who wrote "If the darkness is so deep, surely sunrise can't be far"? Sam Beckett in "Godot" perhaps. This too will pass.